Good Morning Father!
Your continued attention to my life and to my healing, once again amazes me! You are so into the details, aren’t You, Lord? Things that I promised You many years ago, You bring to my mind at just the right moment. I will never forget someone from church calling our house years ago and asking me if Mickey would be willing to do a devotion for an Upward Basketball game during half-time one Saturday morning. Our kids were all playing and I quickly told the person on the other end of the line that I knew Mickey would be delighted to do the devotion and I accepted the invitation for him –certainly he would do it.
I was not so prepared for his next question when he said, “We would love for you to do a devotion also – if you would be willing.” I quickly told him that Mickey would do a great job and we would just leave it at that! Immediately when I got off the phone Your Spirit and Your conviction began in my heart. I knew You – You had been at work in my life and I had plenty I could testify about but it was another step of faith in a new place I hadn’t been before – I would be “stepping out on a limb.” You like us on limbs, don’t You, Lord? And usually the thinner the limb, the more You like it! That way when You strengthen the little limb we are on – You get the glory – because everyone knows we couldn’t be holding up the limb! I can’t remember if it was just a few hours later or a couple of days later, but Your Spirit and Your conviction never let up and I knew You were calling me to share a word of testimony during one of those half-times. I called the person back, told them of Your conviction and told them I would be glad to share a devotion. And at that time, Lord, I told You that any time for the rest of my life that You opened a door for me to share a word of testimony. I would walk through it!! I made You a promise that day and Lord, I believe I have been true to that promise. It has been such a blessing to testify to who You are and what You do in my life! I set a stone in the ground that day and I told You I was willing to “step out on a limb” to speak for You anytime You asked me for the rest of my life! I will be eternally grateful to Mr. Eddie and Upward for that opportunity to begin sharing my faith in a new way. I shared that devotion – I don’t remember what I shared but I remember the joy of You empowering me and it became the first of many opportunities You would open in that way! Only You could know how much I would need to talk and share years down the road!
So back in the spring, Lord, when a beautiful young mother, Caroline, approached me and told me what You had placed on her heart and that she wondered if I would be available to share my testimony – I knew that I had already told You I would share whenever You opened a door and I readily accepted the invitation – sharing was bringing such healing and purpose to my heart! – it would be my great blessing to share. Caroline shared a little of her story with me - Your restoration of her marriage and family and how You had been at work in her life. She had been traveling to women’s conferences and was being challenged in her Christian walk through the testimonies of others. She would always go – make it an overnight trip and be encouraged in her heart and faith. You placed in her heart, after the last conference she went to, that we should do the same in our town – in our community - so that more ladies could participate and wouldn’t have to be away from home overnight. She had been so blessed by the testimony of Tammy Trent and her story of God’s healing and restoration after Tammy’s husband drowned in a diving accident. She had contacted Tammy to see if she was available for one of the last weekends in October – and she was!
She also contacted Wendy Duke, a friend of hers whose daughter had been born without one of her legs due to a cancerous tumor that began before birth. Wendy had also agreed to share. Caroline had asked another friend, Faith Davis, to share on that afternoon. The Lord was using Faith’s life, song and testimony for Him in powerful ways.
I will never forget the first time all of us met – I didn’t know any of them but immediately we felt that sister in Christ bond. It never takes long! We met at Star Bucks, fellowshipped, shared little bits of our stories and we prayed together. It was a powerful and precious first meeting. For the weeks and months that followed we got together to pray for the conference and the ladies who would attend. Caroline came to my house many Wednesdays and we would pray together – it was a precious time and You were developing a new and deep friendship in my life. She was a young mother of two and I had already traveled some of the paths You had her on so I believe our time together each week became an encouragement for her also. And Lord, You know I have told You many times that if You will give me one person a day to pray with for the rest of my life – that I think I will be okay! My life was blessed and enriched by those times of praying together and You were continuing to heal my heart!
I don’t think I understood until just yesterday that perhaps the WOW conference was for me! Of course it was – that is always the way You work. I remember that on the day of the conference one of the things we had been praying about was that Wendy’s new book, “The Grace by which We Stand,” would be shipped in time to be available for the conference. And, of course, it came the evening of the 24th – how into the details You are!
I was so challenged by Caroline, Wendy, Faith and Tammy that day and acquired copies of Wendy’s and Tammy’s books. Up until this time, Lord, You know I had told You that I wasn’t going to read any book until I was completely finished with the one I believed You were calling me to write – I needed to be hearing only Your voice and not anyone else’s style or journey. You also know, Lord, that for several years I have not been a big reader except for my bible. I remember Mickey challenging me years ago about having only wholesome things and truths going into my heart and mind. He was challenging me about a couple of night time “dramas” I was watching and he exhorted me that I shouldn’t be watching them. So, from that time on, I didn’t ever watch them again. Television has never held much glamour for me.
After I finished “A Dove Set Free” and the WOW conference, I was ready to begin reading testimonies of Your grace that others had written. You know, Lord, it is a great blessing to share of Your faithfulness and it is a great blessing to hear others share of Your faithfulness! Giving testimony to Your work in our lives always edifies the body of Christ! We need to hear and know what is going on in the lives of other believers.
I started with Wendy’s book – “The Grace by which We Stand” – the story of her journey with her daughter Savannah through multiple surgeries, chemo treatments at just a few weeks old, the removal of the tumor and the rapid growth of the tumor returning – a story I was all too familiar with. It was amazing how You allowed my heart to so identify with Wendy’s heart. Some of the scriptures You wrote on her heart were some of the same scriptures You wrote on my heart and I was so blessed by reading her beautiful story of Your grace! And I had gotten the opportunity to know and love her – I wept through its pages and You brought even more healing to my heart! And I must tell You, Lord that I was very proud of myself for having read that book. It had been many, many months since I had been able to concentrate long enough to read a book or even had any desire to do so – that in itself was healing for me!
After that accomplishment, last week I picked up Tammy’s story, “Learning to Breath Again.” I could certainly identify with that thought as You were teaching me to breath again! Well, last night, Lord I finished reading Tammy’s story and testimony and o
nce again You challenged , blessed and encouraged my heart as I allowed You to show me more and more of Your grace and Your healing. I was astounded, once again, at some of the parallels of our journeys – even though different – You were guiding each of us through our respective journeys. Last night as I finished there were several things she talked about that I could so identify with –she talked about her husbands service and how someone had arranged for her to release a dove. She talked about lifting her hands, releasing the dove, imagining it was her husband, Trent, flying away to heaven – the dove took off and never returned home. Of course I thought of my story, “A Dove Set Free” and the parallels once again.
She talked about You telling her that she needed to walk away from her musical career for a season so You could put her life back together. You told her that Your plan hadn’t changed – her plan had changed but Yours hadn’t. She talked about the process of going through his clothes and his things – I could once again identify. She talked about words that were said from those in the body of Christ that hurt and should never have been said. She talked about those early times of sharing when You carried her – I could identify. She ended by talking about what Trent would be saying to her, “Girl, you’re doing exactly what you’re supposed to do. I had to go away, but God is using your grief for something very powerful. Don’t give up, Tammy. You’re going to be just fine. I’m so proud of you!” Of course, I could hear Hannah saying those very things to me! She talked about “Carrying his torch” – that sounded familiar also!
Oh Father, how merciful You have been to me – thank You for allowing me to read two books over the last couple of weeks – thank You for bringing healing and encouragement to my heart through the testimonies of others!
When Faith shared her challenge so powerfully, one of the things she talked about was that You use our giftedness to bring healing to our lives – when we use what You have given us – You use it for our benefit as well as for those we are sharing with. You have brought such healing to my heart through sharing – thank You Jesus! Thank You for allowing me to share and thank You for continuing to heal me in the process!
The WOW conference was for me, wasn’t it Lord? You sure went to a lot of trouble for me – thank You Jesus and thank You for everyone You allowed to share! You have healed my heart just a little bit more through that experience!
“To Him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before His glorious presence without fault and with great joy – to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen.” Jude 1:24